Why I Don’t Pick Sides

Hi everybody! Today, I wanted to discuss a topic that I haven’t really addressed in full. In passing, I might have mentioned that I do not like involving myself in others’ drama or that I prefer to stay neutral. However, I have never outright given reasons explaining why I do this.

What does it mean to choose a side?
So, when somebody confronts me with a problem with another individual, I am often prone to wanting to involve myself- especially if I have already formed an opinion on the other person. As I tend to be a rather soft-hearted being, I struggle at times with stepping back with a neutral mind.

However, I currently serve as an administrator on a central hub for a particular website- and I recently attained the position. In the process, I’ve definitely learned that neutrality is a must in order to keep the peace. Bias leads only to further conflict that can easily be avoided.

Why do I refuse to fight other battles?
I never used to avoid others’ arguments; in fact, I always involved myself in debates that were never mine to begin with. As I’ve mellowed gradually through the years, I’ve discovered that other people will not grow up if they have their battles fought for them all the time.

One example I refer to is back when I was a new sophomore in JROTC- in that class, you’re expected to know how to put on your rank and military uniform a specific way. I always relied on my then-boyfriend to put on my rank- then, when we broke up (thus, avoiding each other), I had a hard time setting my rank.

The thing is, I eventually learned. In the process of my struggle, I gained practice in just doing the task. If I deny others the ability to fight their own wars, they are never going to be able to grow as human beings. In time, they’ll learn to appreciate the journey.

Starting a Bullet Journal

Hi everybody! Lately, I have personally been extremely scatterbrained- so, in order to increase my productivity, I will be utilizing my bullet journal. As there have been some people asking me what a bullet journal is, I will be giving a lot of information in this blog post!

What is a bullet journal?
A bullet journal is a specific journal system devoted to maintaining a productive aspect of life, all the while giving the option of customization. You can easily create your own bullet journal simply from an empty notebook and a pen. Although most people tend to add a lot of colors and artsy aspects to their “bujo”, the fact is that how you style yours is completely up to you: that is the beauty of the idea!

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How did you start yours?
I’ll be real. I’ve been doing bullet journals on-and-off since late 2015. One trick that has always grasped me is that I used to add too many tasks in one day, just for the sake of filling up the book. I emphasize heavily against this, and instead, utilizing a habit tracker- which I will be using this time around for a change.

That being said, I always set the first particular page as the Dashboard page- usually for the month. I often find myself needing a special region to throw random notes and ideas, and so the Dashboard would be quite a good place for that; especially if you often get hang-out ideas without a set date thrown on you.

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Afterward, I did end up trying something brand-new: a habit tracker. Even though most of these tasks are pretty straight-forward, there are some days where I might not remember if I took my morning medication! If I am able to look back on the tracker and see, I believe that it will be of immense usage to me. In addition, I cut the page in half, so I could use the other side for the following habit tracker.. but also so I can write out on the back page any certain notes about habits.

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Lastly, of course, is the weekly spread! I admit, I ended up getting frustrated with how I initially set up this page, because I am accustomed to using one full page per day. However, I think that the habit tracker and a weekly spread will turn out to be quite useful, regardless!

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There we go! If you have any suggestions or tips on how you set up your bullet journal, feel free to leave them in the comments! 🙂

[Fan] Illidan S. Poem

Fel-seared eyes,Through broken lies,

He wasn’t always this way.
Loved the magic of light,

Still had his sight,

Though he never saved the day.
Cast into the shadow of leaves,

Forced to pick up his greaves,

And continue on from there.
His love and his cause, shattered by all,

Yet he continues to rise and fall.
Do you blame Illidan Stormrage,

For turning to the next page?

[R] How I Found My Special Place

Hi everybody! So, today’s blog post will be a bit personal, because not necessarily everybody knows the beliefs I follow and the practices I attend to. For those of who you are unaware, I am an eclectic person- I take beliefs from different religions and apply them to my own, but I mainly follow a Pagan-related system. With that in mind, I realize not everybody feels as connected to nature as I do- but there is one place more than anywhere else that I have bonded with.

I have always been an indoors person, truth be told. I don’t like venturing outdoors very much, mostly because of my irrational fear of bees, but also because I don’t take enjoyment in sitting in sunlight and whatnot. That being said, I go on a walk almost daily primarily to get some exercise, but also to meditate.

My special sanctuary, where I feel closest to nature, is actually the playground of an elementary school. Some might view this as odd, but considering I am from Alaska and nearly every place is surrounded by some form of forest, I suppose that makes up for it.

I attended the elementary school as a little girl, but I have always found myself drawn back to the swing-set overlooking the nearby field. I noticed this summer that whenever I meditate at the given place- usually on the swing itself- I feel safe and I also sense an inner tranquil. Some people have to venture more to discover their special place. After all, it took me years to really confirm that the particular playground was mine.

Is there a particular area you feel drawn to outside of your home? That might be your place, and you’ll never know for sure unless you try to discover it. 🙂

Courage

Hi guys! Today’s post will be focused on a story I wish to share with all of you. As many of my readers know, I deal with multiple disabilities, as well as general social anxiety.

So, every other day at least, I go on a walk for about half a mile to visit a playground of the elementary school I attended. Not only does walking with my music clear my mind, but I find swinging on playground swings extremely relaxing. Considering how stressed I discover I can be at times, taking time out of my day to give myself fresh air is actually quite helpful.

When I swing for a bit, I catch a view of two teenage boys playing basketball, and immediately, I knew I wanted to participate. They had clearly just arrived as well, probably a few minutes before I did. So, while swinging, I tried to figure out the best way to approach them. Granted, I have huge social anxiety, and so even talking to strangers leaves me extremely nervous- regardless of age or anything.

After about twenty to thirty minutes, I finally gathered up the courage to speak to them. I asked them if I could play- after all, worst case scenario, they’d say no, right? In a surprising turn, the boys eagerly accepted my request, and I spent the next half hour in an intense game of basketball.

The thing is, social anxiety can control you, yes. However, if you summon enough strength in yourself to push past it, there’s no doubt you’ll regret it. Consider the worst possible thing that can happen: maybe you get told off or something. However, I would rather regret the things I do than the things I don’t do.

And that is how I found courage despite my anxiety.